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12:43 pm: ps
just a heads up all my posts are gonna be at my communities and not on here anymore. so just check them out there if you want! love you girls
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
<3
katie

06:37 pm: purged.....again
okay so as usual i have failed at my fast because of my urge to binge and purge which i think that i am becoming addicted to which is sooo bad i know. i skipped my therapy appointment as usual but i feel bad for flaking but i just cant go. but i bought so enviga and its soooooooooooooo good.so im gona stick to my original plan and goals and just bear down these next few days.i will reach my my saturday goal, easily for sure. ill keep you up to date as usual. ill need motivation too. im really gonna have to rely on the community for support. i can do it! yes! stay positive. here i go wish me luck :)

10:29 pm: day one
i was doing good today but then my mom made me eat and it sucked! i was doing sooooo good today too. ill just work hard tomorrow and the rest of this week.and i have to go to therapy tomorrow.boo.oh well. ill get back on track. all of you inspire me soooo much. i love all of you!best of luck:)
xoxo <3 katie

06:03 pm: so embarassing

this is so embarassing to say but i need to get it out to open my eyes to how stupid and bad it is, im going to write out everything i ate during my 2 binges today. yes two binges.
#1
peanut butter toast.terayki chicken.white rice.10 cookies.5 pieces bread.more brown rice.orange chicken
threw most of that up
#2
10 cookies.mac and cheese.4 pieces toast with butter.pear.marshmellows.
threw almost all that up

yes, i know, this is so disgusting so stupid of me. that is so much gross food. ewi hate myself. im so gross. ew ew ew ew ew. im fasting for the next two days for sure.i hope when i wake up tomorrow i dont feel quite so gross. god i hate myself right now. the binging needs to stop here.now. this is horrible. i will now turn to this post and to all of you in the community next time i even consider or think about eating because it always leads to binging in my case. ew!

be stronger than i was.please.think thin

"because now i am already inside you. i am in your head, your heart, and your soul. the hunger pains you pretend to feel is me, inside of you."

xoxo
<3K

03:51 pm: Fast Day 1
i havent had anything today. so ive been good. i really dont feel good though at all. ew im dying. so yeah i wont be writing anymore until i feel better. im gonna go pass out and not eat.

01:57 pm: i now understand something
began to binge this morning but realized a ways into it that it just isnt worth it. ive worked so hard to get to this point now so why do this. so i stopped. im so happy i can control my binges now even after i start them i can tell myself to stop now before it gets even worse. i know i can reach my set goal. i hope all you girls can be as strong as i was able to be today. i know its all of you out there that inspire me everyday :)
i love you all. ill keep you updated daily :)
xoxo
k

08:39 pm: day one

verrrrrrrrrrrry good day. very focused and very strong today.

2 marshmellow-50 cal
2 1/2 tbsp choc. chips(i need to stop doing that)- 176
toatal cal-225  

yes!

08:54 pm: some thinspiration for you ladies


It's simple: You decide once and for all that you aren't going to eat, and there are no further decisions to make. 

It's not deprivation, it's liberation. 

Feed the soul; let the body fast

07:06 pm: okay so heres the deal
10 commandments courtesy of....x_livetobethin_x

The 10 ANA Commandments
1. If you aren't thin you aren't attractive.
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.
3. You must buy clothes, style your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner.
4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.
6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7. What the scale says is the most important thing.
8. Losing weight is good/gaining weight is bad.
9. You can never be too thin.
10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success


love it! thanks for this:) i hope this all helps girls.
i have set up a veryplanned out new goal to be reached by april 14th
this is very do able and not out of reach
lose 12 pounds by april14
thats 6 pounds by april first 
another 6 by april 14
i can sooooo do this with a few days of fasting mixed with under 400 cal days and exercise. 
im sticking to this even if i slip up and ill document everything on my journal as i do in my own personal food journal
#1 so i can feel help accountable 
#2 so you all can follow my progress if this interests you at all
#3 to possibly motivate all of you out there

good luck.stay strong.believe
aim: landoos
hit me up when you need 
xoxo
k

05:08 pm: already done
binge then purge.whats new.i hate myself.why do i do this.why

01:27 am: credit to skiney_raven who found this
My friend found this 28 day fast.
It sounds awsome. I want to do it so bad.
here it is:

Fasting

Absence of Food and State

Fasting refers to the complete absence of Food, only Water.

Short-Term Fasting

In general, fasts should be conducted for no longer than 28 days, with most fasts 21 days or less. Long fats (for more than 42 days), are both unnecessary, and potentially dangeroud. A prolonged fast, for more than 2-3 months, is called Starvation! Although most of the 'miraculous' benefits of fasting do result from 3-5 days or more but 7-14 days, that's "healing". Although days 1-7 are quite benefitial to be sure, days 7-14 are truly tremendous, with the benefits from days 14-21 becoming extreme. Days 21-28 are nothing than a complete regeneration of the body. Literally erasing years of aging. (Where the true "Miracles of fasting" take place).

Medium-Term Fasting

Medium fasts (Between 28-42 days), although certainly possible, and frequently performed by dedicated fasters. The benefits of a 35 day fast are absolutely astonishing!

Fasting and Ketone Bodies

After the third day of a fast, the body begins to make ketone bodies in the liver (Enters ketosis). In the absence of food (Energy), Ketone bodies are produced by the body as an alternate energy source. Normally, ketone levels in the blood are less than 0.2mm. After several days of fasting they approach 3.0mm, and steadily rise thereafter. Importantly, never eat, even an extremely amount of food during a fast. This will quickly shift the body out of ketosis, back to its normal metabolism of glucose (food), decreasing ketone bodies, decreasing growth hormone and increasing hunger.

Fasting and Hunger Levels

The only challenge to fasting, and a challenge for many it is, is completing the first 1-5 days. During days 1-5 hunger levels can flucuate from average, to well above average many actually experience their greatest hunger on day 3 (Just prior to ketosis, when both blood sugar, and ketone body levels, are lowest). After day 3, hunger levels noticeably decrease. After day 5, hunger levels, and the "desire" for food in general (So strong initially), dramatically decrease. After day 10, hunger levels, for the most part, are non-existent.

Fasting and Energy Levels

During days 1-5, energy levels can flucuate from average to well below average (Feeling light headed, at times, is not uncommon). During days 5-10, energy levels very noticeably improve after day 10, with sharply elevated levels of both growth hormone, and ketone bodies, energy levels are tremendous, as is mental clarity.

Fasting and Weight Loss

Expect (in general) to lose 1 pound each day of fasting!

Fasting and Starvation

Contrary to what many people believe, fasting is not starvation. During the fast, the body is breaking down the non-essential tissue (Fat) for energy. While conserving essential tissue. Starvation, is the point where the body has used up all of its non-essential tissues (Reserves) ,and begins to break down its own essential tissues. This point (The point of starvation), even for the average individual (Of normal weight), takes quite some time to reach (Some 42 days or more).

Fasting and severely restrictive diets

Prolonged, severely restrictive diets are extremely unhealthy, in many cases, even life threatening. Unlike fasting, the body never completely enters ketosis (A fundamental process in sparing essential tissue from breaking down). The result, severely restrictive diets cause the body to lose a much greater percentage of lean body tissue (Essential tissue) than a complete fast. Over time (Once body reserves become dangerously low), lean body tissue (Essential tissue) eventually become used as an energy source. Prolonged, severely restrictive diets, are essentially just a slow form of starvation.

Fasting and Calorie Restriction

Calorie restricted (10-30%) diets are extremely healthy. Unlike severly restricted diets, the bodies energy (Food) needs are restricted just enough to result in sharply elevated levels of growth hormone, while eliminating the need to break down essential tissues.

Recommended Fasting Schedule

Definitely include short-term fasting (1-28 days) into your schedule. Your body will begin to literally "grow younger" before your eyes, especially, after day 10.

Discipline and Determination

Suppressing hunger (During days 1-5), one of life's greatest drives, is not easy for most! Eliminating food (During the fasting period), one of life's greatest pleasures, is not easy for most! However, those that have the discipline, and determination, wil have tremendous to extreme healthy benefits awaiting them!

No Pain No Gain

With the exceptions of days 1-5, particulary day 3, fasting is not nearly as difficult as one might imagine (In fact, after day 10, quite pleasurable). Remember too, exercise (Discussed next), also associated with some degree of self sacrifice to promote health, pales in comparison to fasting in terms of health benefits. In fact, one could perform 1-3 annual (14-28) fasts, or calorie restrict (10-30%), never exercise again, and achieve a state of health that no form or amount of exercise could ever accomplish

01:11 am: yesssssss finally

yes! i finally have something to look forward to and now have motivation to lose weight even more now. april 14th is a little thing called picnic day at the college here.pretty much a party from sun up until the sun comes up the next day. im going to watch my best friend in a fashion show and then meet up with a lot of people i havent seen for a while. i must be skinney for that. i always do so well with something like this to look forward to. yes! i must lose weight but april 14th. i must.i must i must! and i will! yes! i will keep you all updated my stats.everything i consume. so i can be held accountable to all of you on here. 

08:35 pm: i just ate fruit and m&ms. i feel horrible. i hate it. and marshmellows.oh god.jesus. stop it katie, im horrible. absolutly nothing tomorrow.nothing.

04:31 pm: my goals :)

okay goals for me

height: 5'9

c/w: 130....gross
h/w:160
l/w: 105....when i got mono twice in a month
g/w: 110

by 3/25 g/w: 120
by 4/7 g/w: 110-115.

ill go from there
i know i wont be happy until i reach these goals and im giving myself a lot of time for them too. ive just been stuck on 130 for so long. i need to drop into the 20s.

04:28 pm: just wrote a paper on childhood obesity
im a nutrtion major and i just had to write a huge paper on childhood obesity in America. Holy shit if that isnt motivation to not eat i dont know what is. its scary.

01:05 am: failure
i gave in,i binged.im so upset.i think i got it all out though.im not supposed to be doing this anymore...

10:22 pm: i just need to sleep
im hungry. i want to eat.but i cannot get myself to move.thank god.ive never been this strong before.i think i just hit the last straw after my last binge and purging.my mom begged me to stop throwing up.so i will.and now i have a good reason to not eat because i cant throw up and let my mom down.and i have therapy next tuesday.blah.i hate it.im doing it all for my mom.i still feel huge.and i cant sleep anymore.i have such a hard time falling asleep now and i hate it and i dont know why i cant sleep.any ideas anyone?

i love looking at all the thinsperation in the journals and it helps so much! i love that you girls post them.thank you.

yeah so im just trying to keep myself busy and not eating by writing on here so i dont really have anything imparticular to talk about

4 chocolate chips
2 chocolate chip cookies
3 hard candies
small bite of ice cream
small bite of cookie dough

wow when you write out every single thing you ate it looks like a lot. jeeze. i suck. hmmmmmmm...well i have a long busy day tomorrow which is good and bad.ill be away from food, but i dont have the energy to be busy all day.
whatever
goodnight all.
love you <3
do you live to eat or do you eat to live???
stay strong.believe.
xoxoK

05:24 pm: day two of five day fast
im extremely stoked today!i did so good. 3 hard candies.4 choc. chips.1 bite of ice cream. it is under 120 cals for the day. i will get through this fast and it will be soooo worthless. i almost slipped but i went to the grup page and got motivation to not eat. thanks guys! <3 xoxo

10:32 am: my escape
yes off to school.one of my favorite places.why you ask.because im am not around food and my mind is totally off food for 3 amazing hours.okay maybe not totally but not a lot.i love school.my escape.but then ill be back home to face everything.day 2 of fast.good so far.

01:02 am: ughhhhhh
im so over being stuck at this weight. its wayyyyyy to much. ive been here for weeks. not going up but not going down. im so frustrated. this fast will work. i keep finding out all this things to do, 7 day diets, liquid diets, fasts. but im gonna start with the fast and go from there. so fast today until saturday night. i hate how fat i look.i will do this.i have no choice.im am losing this goddamn weight.now.